You are Worthy

This poem was inspired by a very troubled young fellow, whom suffers from Bipolar as well as several addictions, and that I had the pleasure of meeting and connecting with recently during my long stay in the hospital. 
What I have learned ~ When you see someone struggling, never lead with judgement, take a moment to place yourself directly in their light path, and allow yourself to learn, see, and understand who they truly are! Share your light, and love with all those around you, and feel your soul soar. It changed me, it will change you too
You are Worthy

I see you, with those wild crazy eyes flying about,
darting back and forth in a drug induced paranoia.

Rapid words and uttered fears,

so scared, so untrusting.
You notice me sitting there, quietly watching as you approach,
staring at you with a small shy smile, welcoming your presence.
I feel you, as you vibrate slowly move towards me.

Your eyes huge and unsure, expecting me to think you are not worthy.

I say, ‘Hi, how are you?’, as I reach out my hand, 

wanting you to know, that I want to understand. 
I hear you, as you stop and you stare, with confusion and wonder.

what kind of spell is this crazy girl under?

My hand stays outstretched, until you take hold.

and I notice your eyes, shine with bright flecks of gold.

We shared a special moment, and a short prayer of intention,

that we together we’ll move through and past this transition.

A new found friend, still fighting his demons,

but with a whole new way of looking for reasons.
I’m in awe of the strength, I see in your eyes,

I tell you so, as you smile with surprise. 

You love like a fierce tiger, always prepared for the fight.

your soul touches many, when you lead with your light.

You share a song on your guitar, flash a smile or tell a joke,

you have an uncanny ability to remember the names of all folk. 
Let the fog roll away, 

Let your body be cleansed. 

Allow time for your answers,

your prayers have been sent.
You must do the work, 

and it will take time.

But I have faith in the knowing,

you will bloom and you will shine.
Be blessed my friend, for you have forever changed me,

you gave me the gift, of letting me in to see.

Your wisdom and insight, and outlook on life,

will inevitably drive you to win this fight. 
Sending much love light to you all,

Jenny Tasker

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Bittersweet February

Well February 2016 has been a bittersweet month for me so far…
A month that is filled with beautiful memories such as, celebrating my Valentine’s Anniversary with the most amazing, kind, patient, (for the most part, it’s good to have some sass in there) understanding, beautiful soul of a man, any women could wish for, but unfortunately having to share this special memory in the hospital…
What an adventure that was! It was my longest stay in hospital, next to being on bed rest with Josh, and it about drove me bananas, but funnily enough, in a good way.
I was given no choice but to take these bountiful drugs, that calm the uncontrollable flare that I got myself stuck in.
I have a Mast Cell disease called Mast Cell Activation Syndrome. A condition that causes my body to produce WAY too many mast cells. You see mast cells are a great thing, they protect and alert our body to all sorts of dangers, and actually work to protect you from said danger. But in a condition like mine, with too many mast cells, we are in a constant high alert mode. Always in what we call a ‘flare’ just beneath the surface. Because we are so sensitive in our alert mode, almost anything can trigger us and cause us to go into ANA. (Anaphylaxis)
When we think ANA, we automatically think you can’t breath, thankfully this has only happened to me a handful of times. There are many with my condition that this happens to daily!!
When I am going into ANA, I usually feel like an elephant is sitting on my chest, not a nice vibe, but I stay calm and remind myself I can breath, I use my inhaler, take my pills and relax, or meditate, works well for me. Sometimes though,mit’s my stomach that goes into ANA, which was the case that brought me into hospital. I must have eaten something my body didn’t like, and I went into a complete flare, I was so sick that after a week at home sick I was entering extreme danger zone.
So in I went…
I hate the way all these meds make me feel but they are doing their job, and slowly but surely (18 days later) I was starting to stabilize.
This was frightening for me, I have never been this sick before, it really gets a girl riled. But I never lost my faith that I would see this through, and place this in my past along with all of these amazingly tough lessons life likes to throw at me.
You know what keeps me going? I never cease to amaze myself!! Sounds funny, but I have have gone through a lot of well, shit, and I always follow the exact same pattern to work my way through it, learn from it, and place it in my past.
It starts with my usual pity party, now don’t be judging, this is so good for me. I cry, I feel sad and sorry for myself, but then I always ask WHY?? (I most often yell it, lol) and it’s then, that I start finding the answers that that I need to start working my way through this.

So today, as I’m resting at home with my family, recuperating and preparing to push through this adventure, I find myself once again, feeling so unbelievably blessed.
I have already come through the worst of it, as I am staying stable at home (Woot!) but I have much work to do to repair my body from all the damage this flare has done.

I will heal, Its already begun, so the blessings are bountiful and are what I choose to focus on when I feel frustrated with how hard or how long this is taking (Impatient little Imp that I am, I have so much to do, and I’m so far behind yikes!!)
I definitely need to work harder on my patience, I’ve got the patient part down pat, why is the rest so hard?! LOL!!

So that’s my February so far! I wanted to share this with you because I am trying to open up and share a bit more of myself.  I want you to know the real authentic me.
I cannot thank you all enough for following my work, and blessing me with your openness and kindness, prayers and love, and I am so honored to be walking this soul path with you. ❤️

I would like to send out a very special thank you to my unbelievably supportive team of #WUVIP Soul sisters, Shari Alyse, Anna Pereira, Kimberly Rogers Bayne, Heather Durling, Ashley Brewer, Heather Corinne Lang, Cheryl O’Connor.

I could not have made it through those darkest moments without you.
The love, light-circles, prayers and pep talks, helped me find the strength I needed to push forward. I will always be eternally grateful and I am incredibly honored to be a part of thewellnessuniverse.com ❤️

Sending much love, and light-filled blessings,
Namaste
Jenny Tasker

Life Lessons

Those tough lessons life throws us, that help us to grow.
Can be so painful, and scary but through it we must go.
It’s futile to fight, you must choose to face those fears
To push on and through it, with pause for cleansing tears.
Take each step very slowly, just one at a time.
And before you know it you’ve begun the climb.
The hill will be steep, and you might slip and you will fall,
but you keep on getting up, and pushing through it all.
You begin to see this small, simmering glow,
a light on the horizon, beckoning you to follow.
Focusing on your purpose, keeps you set on course
It grows with each new step, as your strength grows with force.
Keep climbing toward that light, see it get brighter,
Let it remind you of who you are, as you begin to feel lighter.
At the top of that climb will be the end of this path,
You’ll move onto another, leaving this one in your past.
From this difficult struggle that seemed to go on and on forever
Is a bright shiny new you, stronger and more together.
The power is yours, within you is where it lies,
just always believe, in your strength and your light.

The Wellness Universe

Hello beautiful friends,
I am incredibly excited to share the launch of the Wellness Universe 2.0.
This outstanding community, has transformed my life’s journey. I can’t tell you what an honor it is to be a part of this wellness movement.
Upon visiting the Wellness Universe, you are immediately able to access our amazing directory of the most inspirational wellness driven, people and pages on social media.
Our mission, compassionately encompasses all aspects of wellness and self-enrichment, while maintaining the highest level of professionalism. These amazing people have become a part of my family, walking with like souls, on our incredible journey of Changing the World!
Love, Light, & Wellness, xo Jenny ❤
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Navigating Your Mind-Field

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The Mind-Field or battleground of our mind can be a pretty scary place to hang out.

Yet many of us, continue to reside there, even in place of sleep. We’ll go back and forth, like a never ending tennis match, as we desperately try to work through our issues. We instead need to step out of our mind, and into our light, where you’ll find balance. This is a much more comfortable, and healthy place to reside. The answers you seek can easily be found here.

A human’s mind is a complex place and still way beyond our present understanding. Basically, our brain is like elaborate computers. A seemingly endless database of thoughts and memories. An unemotional logistic storage device. When making the most important life decisions, we tend to remain stuck in those storage devices. Instead, we need to ask ourselves what ‘feels‘ right, then the answers will quickly become clear.

Be mindful of the ‘signals‘ your core, your center, is giving you. Ask yourself, “How do I feel about this situation?“, “Will this serve my purpose?“ and finally “What should I do?” The key step, that many of us forget, is to quietly, mindfully, wait for the answers to come, and they will. Often this is felt in your core (tummy) before it reaches your brain, and basically you will feel the answer. We are a very complicated and amazing species indeed.

All of us have the ability to store limitless amounts of information in our massive computers, but we can also drive ourselves to madness, insecurity, and depression if we allow ourselves to stay lost in our minds, instead of learning to trust in our light. We are all pure light energy, powered by love, and have many capabilities, beyond our wildest dreams, and it is through learning to navigate that complicated mind-field, that you will find the key to unleashing your light.

All of us hear two distinct voices, one is Ego, the other is your Light source. The Ego loves to shout, and can be quite a bully indeed! Saying horribly negative, and often scary things, creating fear, self-loathing, insecurity, and anxiety. It’s not trying to be cruel, but you are asking a computer for advice so what did you expect?

Our Light Source is a whisperer that is continuously sending us loving, positive, forward moving, and problem-solving thoughts. The closer you listen, the further you travel towards who you truly are! Practice Mindfulness to find balance.

Being mindful does not mean you pitch a tent and stay in your mind and slowly driving yourself bananas in the process. Being mindful means to slow right down, be aware of your breath, your movements, your very being. Find the volume button on your Light Source and turn it up full blast!! Learn to depend on this voice as if it were your closest ally because trust me it is!! The more mindful, and aware of this voice you become, the more enlightened and powerfully full of love, you will feel.

It’s time to turn that Ego volume right down, you don’t need it to be so loud!! You need to find your balance and trust that your Light and who you really are is so much more than enough. Embrace this glorious love-filled light with all your might, this will allow you to always see the bright, beautiful, and loving side of you, forever transforming this incredible journey we call life and properly navigate your mind-field.

Jenny Tasker

Reblogged ~ Original Source The Wellness Universe

 

I Wonder

I wonder if I will look like I once did, not so long ago, youthful. happy, even a little beautiful, or will I be swollen, my skin dehydrated, covered in hives, or God forbid, in full blown anaphylaxis? I wonder.

I wonder if today, I will be having a delightful spa-like shower, or will I spend most of this day in my bedroom, not the best view of my lovely neighborhood, suffering from the apparent trigger I have unknowingly come in to contact with. I wonder.

I wonder if I will be able to sit on my patio today, listening to the beautiful birds, and breathe in this delicious gift of fresh air, or if I will be confined to my bed, unable to keep even sips of water down. I wonder.

I wonder if today, I will be able to go for a walk, or maybe a nice farmers market, regardless if my feet and legs swell, or will my sheer fear, continue preventing me from going any further than the confines of my home. I wonder.

I wonder if people know how it feels, to be able to be home every single day with my family, to listen and join in on their laughter, and share in their joys. Or do they just see a pitiful 44 year old woman stuck at home, on disability. I wonder.

I wonder if when people take the time to ask how I am, they realize the amazing light filled gift they are giving me, just by wishing me well. (Yes we ARE, that powerful) Or do they think that their mere words are not enough, or don’t matter? I wonder.

I wonder if others realize this beautiful gift we are given, to wake up and have our very breath, to be able to share your light with the world, one more time. Or do they slam off the alarm and curse the start of yet another day. I wonder.

I wonder if the day will come, when we learn to lead with love, without judgement or hate of things we don’t understand. Or will we continue to make the same past mistakes, for fear of having an opinion of our own? I wonder.